A bit scared about my monthly periods

For the past 4 years after giving birth, I haven't experienced yet a normal menstruation. For the past years, I could only count how many times I had my period. There was a time that I haven't had my period for almost a year and this thing really scares me. Last year, if I remember it right, I just had 2 periods, that each menstruation lasted for weeks and it's truly scary.

This year, I only had one menstruation and that was 2 months ago, that was just slight bleeding that lasted 2 days. And after a few weeks, I had spotting and until this month. I really don't know if what's wrong and it really scares me. I'm also not feeling well.

I have read that after you gave birth, it takes time for your menstruation to go back to normal. I have read some testimonials that they haven't had periods for years after giving birth and this is due to hormonal imbalance.

I'm really hoping and praying so hard that this is not a serious illness and this is just due to hormonal imbalance...Oh Lord Jesus, Please do Help me...I'm just a bit scared and very much worried....

I don't want to pursue it

I was talking to my mom awhile ago and we had a nice conversation. Our main topic was about something that I'm not 100% sure if it's going to work. For the past few days, I'm very much guilty since my mom noticed that I seemed so cold or I'm not interested in talking to her. And I admit that I'm not in the mood to talk to her at that time since I was a bit hurt of what I've discovered or the things that she had said about me. Even if she'll not tell if what she actually feels about me, I know she's very much disappointed with me since she has so much expectations from me that I haven't accomplished even a single thing from those expectations.

She really want me to pursue something, but to be honest, I don't want to do it since I don't want to be far away from my daughter, since she's my life and my strength. But I don't have any choice but to follow her. However, if I only have the option, I would rather continue doing what I love than to go to a particular place wherein I'll just be depressed and be missing my daughter. I can't say no to her since I still haven't proven myself if I'm really good with what I do and I have a future there.

I don't like people who belittle me

I don't like people who belittle me. And it's just so sad that the people who belittled you, is your family. Yes, it hurts so much. Right now, I don't know what to do since I just felt that I'm so helpless, so little and so disappointed with myself. I really don't know what's in store for me and if there's still a brighter future ahead of me. I just felt that every thing I do doesn't work at all. It seemed that it takes forever for me to receive the positive results of my hard work. And it hurts more when people closest to you are also the ones who would contribute to your loneliness and would make you feel that you're such a failure.


I don't like people who will control your life as if they know better than you, and you should listen to them since they are thinking that you are not capable of making decisions for yourself. They will not just ask about your ideas or suggestions or what you really felt at the moment. They are just so insensitive and so self-centered.

I really don't like people who are like this, but as what we always say, we can't really please everybody or you can't force everyone to like you.

So tired of waiting

It's been almost 7 months since I started blogging, but I'm still far away from my dreams, or would I be able to reach that dreams of mine. At times, it's too tiring, I don't know if I still have a brighter future ahead of me. Life is so unfair, I ran out of idea of what I'm going to do now. All I want to do is to cry out loud and shout out loud. Why all these things are happening to me? Am I that bad or something? When would I see the brighter side of life? It seems that I was only born here just to experience failure and hardships in life....


Please Lord, help me to overcome all these... I'm just so tired. Embrace me and let me feel your warmest touch. Comfort me, and let me feel your love for me. These are the things that I'm longing to feel from you.

Searching for ways on how to earn more money online ...

 I have been searching online for ways to earn more money online since honestly, it's really hard to earn a decent amount of money on the internet. I need to find possible ways in order to make a regular income every month and that would be very hard if you work from your home. I did an intense research on the web on how to do it. But there's a particular article that caught my attention, so I immediately read it.

It's not the usual article on earning money online, as a matter of fact it doesn't give ideas at all to its readers on how to earn more money online.  In fairness to the person who wrote it, she pointed out some things on what's the reality of blogging and if there's really truth to what others claiming over the net that indeed, they earn from it. She jotted down there that only a very small percentage of bloggers around the world who make a living from blogging, and majority of bloggers don't earn that much or let's just say, their hard work didn't pay-off in the long run.


However, what I didn't like about the article, as well as the rest of the people who have read it is that, you have to be very great for you to earn money from it or you don't have future at all in blogging if you're not as talented as her in writing, and she has a wrong way of saying it to her readers. It's kind of insulting a person that if you're not as great as her, then you better stop or don't try reaching your dream. She even boasted her achievements, her traffic, how a great writer she is, which is kind of a slap in the face. It's her way of saying that "if you don't have achievements like mine, or you don't have that fantastic writing skills as mine, then you better stop blogging. " As a matter of fact, she received numerous negative comments from that entry. A lot of people were saying that she just wrote that article just to drive traffic to her site, and others said that she is just so mean for saying those kind of things to a person who have read it and just starting to reach his/her dream in the world of blogging, wherein he/she might be discouraged and would give that person a low self-esteem if he/she has still a place in the blogosphere.


Honestly, when I read that post, I was sort of discouraged, but thanks to the majority of people who have commented and they just enlightened me. They have pointed out that you don't have to be  great writer for you to earn money from blogging. All you need is determination, hard work, patience, and you love what you do. If you have the passion for it, then don't stop reaching your dream.


I'm very much willing to work hard so that I could earn more money online. I completely understand that it would really take time to earn a decent amount of money on the web or if you work from your home. So, it really requires  lot of patience and hard work.

I'm dissatisfied with Globe Broadband's unlimited surfing

I’ve been using this Globe broadband for almost 2 years now. Back then, I thought using it would be convenient and affordable, since they are offering 20 pesos per hour of browsing on the internet or to break it down, it is 5 pesos per 15 minutes of browsing. But it is per site, which means if ever you are browsing 2 sites within that 15 minutes, it will cost you 10 pesos in 15 minutes of browsing those 2 sites. At that time, I gave it a try since I don’t really use the internet that often since I’m busy with other things, wherein I’ll only be spending 20 pesos if I need to do something online, which I think at that time it was a practical option. And during those times, I believe Globe was the only network that was offering that kind of thing, so I don’t have any options at all but to try what they’re offering on the market.

However, if my memory serves me right, they released this unlimited surfing for 1 day for only 50 pesos some time in 2010. Hearing it really made me excited to try their promo since it’s UNLIMITED in the first place, which means you can surf the internet for 24 hours or anytime you want it.

For the first couple of months of using the promo I could say there was no problem, but the only issue I had with their service was you can’t be able to subscribe to their unlimited surfing once it was passed 9 pm. So if you have something to do very important online on that very day, then you have to register to their unli surf earlier than 9pm, or else you have to register the following day.

But, these past few months, I could say there were a lot of issues that I already encountered using their promo about unlimited surfing. I can say from a scale of 1-10, I will give their service a score of 4, which means lately I’m not already satisfied at all with Globe Broadband. I thought I was the only one who had these problems with them, but I have read some articles and forums that they were dissatisfied as well with the Globe’s unlimited surfing promo, and Globe has received numerous complains about it.

The thing that really irritates me was they are claiming that it was AN UNLIMITED SURFING but how come that you’ll receive a text message, stating that they have disconnected you for the reason that you have reached the maximum browsing sort of thing, and your subscription will continue the following day. This is VERY HASSLE on people like me who are doing something very important online, but because of this Globe fair use policy thing, I can’t be able to do what I supposed to do online. I’m still wondering why they haven’t resolved this issue yet when in fact like I said above, they already received tons of complains about it. Why is it that until now, they haven’t done anything about the complains they are receiving? 

All I can say is that, they have to give the best service they can give to their consumers, and please be honest with the service you’re offering since we really deserve it. If you say it’s unlimited surfing, then, give it to us. Don’t make us believe that you have this unlimited thing, as what you’ve promised on TV commercials, when in fact, it isn’t unlimited at all. After all, we, the consumers are the people responsible why your products are still on the market. So, you have to take good care of your consumers. Listen to all your consumers’ complains, and do all the possible ways just to make everything right.

Right now, I have plans not to use this Globe broadband anymore, since it actually gives me headaches every time they disconnect my internet connection, wherein I can’t do those important things online that needed to be done as soon as possible. Just like now, I can’t be able to register to their unli surf. Every time I register it always says that I’m still registered to unli surf, and I still have to wait for my subscription to end before I could register again, sort of thing. When in fact, my subscription supposed to end this morning, 8 am to be exact. However, it is passed 10pm but still, I couldn’t register to 8888 and actually, I’m wondering why I haven’t received the text message this morning that says my registration to unli surf has ended, hmmm, I smell something fishy here. Anyway, I can’t afford to experience this kind of thing every single day and it’s getting into my nerves. I don’t want to deal with this kind of drama anymore, since time for me is too precious to be wasted. I will just try other internet providers available on the market, wherein I’ll be happy and satisfied with the services they are offering.

My daughter is now 4 years old...

We have celebrated my daughter's birthday last 3 days ago, the thing that also made me busy these past few days, in preparing for just a simple celebration with my family and closest friends.And it was a lot of fun, and the birthday celebrant really enjoyed what I've prepared for her, which is the most important thing for me.

And now I just realized how time flies, because it's been 4 years since I gave birth to her. Yes, she is now 4 years old, and it makes me think I'm now getting older as well, *Lol*.On a serious note, now that she's again a year older, I have realized a lot of things. I can't let go of the fact that in the years to come, she will be entering into a new chapter in her life, wherein she'll have to deal with the stress and reality of life. As we all know, life can be cruel at times, and that's what scares me the most. Since she's my baby and forever be my baby, I can't let go of the fact that when she reached a certain age, she will be the only one who would make a decision for herself and would really decide on what path she'll take. Wherein I couldn't be always there to protect her 24/7, as much as I want to. That’s not possible since she also has her own life, that for sure, she wants to live it by herself, that I also find very important for her to learn more about life, for her to be more independent and to learn from each mistakes that she'll commit in her life. And with those problems that she's going to face, she'll eventually become a much stronger and better person.

As parents, the thing that we can do is to support our children every step of the way ,and to show our undying love for them that no matter what they do, even if they’ll  mess-up or commit  some major mistakes in their lives, we are still there who would accept them with open arms.

I’m praying so hard that this world would not be too hard on her, that she’ll be a very strong person so that she could face all trials with confidence, and be able to overcome whatever trials that might come along her way.

I'm not interested about the program for registered Nurses

I just heard it in the news that the gov't is now doing an action to stop the exploitation of registered nurses in the Philippines. This thing was already present a couple of years ago wherein nurses are forced to pay a certain amount just to have a training in a hospital setting. And a lot of nurses do this stuff in order to earn some experience and to practice their  profession as well. I haven't experienced it since I don't have enough money to pay for the training fees which costs 2,000 and above. However, my only option was to volunteer in an ambulatory hospital,since it's too impossible for me to land a job.

I passed the nursing board exam last 3 years ago, so that was July of 2008. And it took me a year to finally find a hospital where I can volunteer and  practice my profession. So, if it's a volunteer, it means I'll be receiving nothing from my service, no allowance and the like. It's frustrating, and our situation really saddened me since I really need a work badly, because I want to help my family. They have invested money just to make me graduate in this course since nursing course is a very expensive course that costs a hundred thousand a year. It's so sad that right after passing the board exam, this will not yet serve as a ticket or will guarantee you in landing a job.

Everything that had happened with this profession, really frustrates me. Yes, I've heard on the news that the gov't is doing something just to help those nurses who don't have job nowadays. I'm still not interested with this program since the other program for nurses that was launched by the former pres. Gma was not successful and I've heard a lot of horror stories about it. I'm not interested in applying in the program and I think, I'm not also interested in pursuing my profession anymore.