I don't want to pursue it

I was talking to my mom awhile ago and we had a nice conversation. Our main topic was about something that I'm not 100% sure if it's going to work. For the past few days, I'm very much guilty since my mom noticed that I seemed so cold or I'm not interested in talking to her. And I admit that I'm not in the mood to talk to her at that time since I was a bit hurt of what I've discovered or the things that she had said about me. Even if she'll not tell if what she actually feels about me, I know she's very much disappointed with me since she has so much expectations from me that I haven't accomplished even a single thing from those expectations.

She really want me to pursue something, but to be honest, I don't want to do it since I don't want to be far away from my daughter, since she's my life and my strength. But I don't have any choice but to follow her. However, if I only have the option, I would rather continue doing what I love than to go to a particular place wherein I'll just be depressed and be missing my daughter. I can't say no to her since I still haven't proven myself if I'm really good with what I do and I have a future there.