I'm just so happy that I have met you. The month of May is just a very memorable month for me, for the reason that I have talked to you again after 17 yrs. I never thought that my classmate in grade school would mean so much to me now. This is really the perfect time to enter again in a new relationship, after being single for years now.
At that particular moment, I prayed to God that I'll finally meet a person to whom I'll share my life with, and then He gave you to me. You really are an answered prayer. I love you so much sweetheart and I just can't afford to lose you. Thanks for everything. I hope and pray that you are the one already. I want to grow old with you. Yes, I want to marry you after a year, as what you've always asking from me. I really really love you "marvzzzz". I just can't wait to see you soon....
Monday, July 16, 2012
I'm doing Fine...
It has been months that I have written my last entry in here, 4 months to be exact. I almost have forgotten that this blog do exist, LMAO..
Well anyway, a lot of things happened the past months. Right after I wrote my last entry about losing my job, a few days later I landed a job in one of the most famous freelancing sites online. Yes God is just so great, He immediately revealed to me the kind of thing that I'll be doing, that is way better than my previous job. I'm just so thankful at that time since it really helped us pay our bills and the pay is way better than any regular day jobs out there. The pay is even better than my previous job. But unfortunately, my contracts ended already, and I'm currently struggling in finding another jobs on that site. Well, I have to remain positive and I know anytime soon God will provide jobs since He knows I badly need it right now, coz my daughter is in school already. God Please do help me....
Well anyway, a lot of things happened the past months. Right after I wrote my last entry about losing my job, a few days later I landed a job in one of the most famous freelancing sites online. Yes God is just so great, He immediately revealed to me the kind of thing that I'll be doing, that is way better than my previous job. I'm just so thankful at that time since it really helped us pay our bills and the pay is way better than any regular day jobs out there. The pay is even better than my previous job. But unfortunately, my contracts ended already, and I'm currently struggling in finding another jobs on that site. Well, I have to remain positive and I know anytime soon God will provide jobs since He knows I badly need it right now, coz my daughter is in school already. God Please do help me....
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
I'm just so sad today since I failed for the second time.
I'm just so sad today when I saw one of the statuses of my co-worker. She is just so happy since she's already an IC. And after I read that, I just felt if I worked hard would I'd be able to reach that one as well. For the second time I failed. Maybe there's something wrong with me. I just felt that I'm not really good or smart enough. Looking back, I know that I have mistakes and my heart wasn't really into it. I'm not really focused on my work. So, look at what happened. I do have regrets again. For the second time I missed the opportunity that was given to me. This particular thing is definitely an eye-opener for me. I should change my attitudes towards work.
At this very moment, all I just want to say to myself is " for heaven sake, you need to work very hard now since in a few months time, your daughter will be going to school already! How would you be able to sustain her needs, and how would you be able to give her a brighter future if you're always like that!"
Lord please do help me as well since I don't have the enough courage and strength to face all the hardships in life, like the challenges at work. Please give me the enough strength that I needed.
Lord, please," parang di ko na kaya 'to". Please reveal the things that I should need to do in order for me to have that "day job" that I badly need at this very moment. And most of all, forgive me if I fail the second time around since I have mistakes as well. I didn't give importance to the opportunities that were given to me. But I need to move on now, and I should not dwell on the negative things that happened to me. But rather focus on finding another one and to correct all the mistakes that I've done. I'm very determined now. I hope You'll give me another chance and help me to do my job well.
At this very moment, all I just want to say to myself is " for heaven sake, you need to work very hard now since in a few months time, your daughter will be going to school already! How would you be able to sustain her needs, and how would you be able to give her a brighter future if you're always like that!"
Lord please do help me as well since I don't have the enough courage and strength to face all the hardships in life, like the challenges at work. Please give me the enough strength that I needed.
Lord, please," parang di ko na kaya 'to". Please reveal the things that I should need to do in order for me to have that "day job" that I badly need at this very moment. And most of all, forgive me if I fail the second time around since I have mistakes as well. I didn't give importance to the opportunities that were given to me. But I need to move on now, and I should not dwell on the negative things that happened to me. But rather focus on finding another one and to correct all the mistakes that I've done. I'm very determined now. I hope You'll give me another chance and help me to do my job well.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
My baby girl turns 5 years old...
Time flies so fast that my baby girl turns 5 years old now...I'm quite busy today but I make it appoint to jot down here the special day of my baby. All I'm wishing is that you'll grow as a beautiful human being both inside and out. That you would grow as a kind lady with a big heart and be respectful to us. Just be a good girl and mama will do everything for you. Even though I'm a single mom and it's truly hard to be one but I'll do everything that I can just to give all the best things that this world has to offer. I'm willing to sacrifice everything just for you my baby....
Always remember that I love you forever..And always bear in mind that I'm not just the only one who really loves you but as well as your lolo, lola, tita and tito...We are always here to support you each step of the way and to protect and comfort you whenever you need us and when you feel that this world has been unfair to you....
Once again we love you so much baby girl and happy, happy birthday to you!!!!!
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
I did it again...
There was something that happened this week that I do regret why I didn't give my best. For the second time around, I failed again....Yes, I did it again...I never went out of my way just to get in and this sort of thing happened for the second time again..I do have regrets again why I never tried hard just to get in. Sometimes, I really don't understand why I can't be able to remain focus on something. I always say that I need this particular thing but once an opportunity was given to me, I didn't really give my best just to really have it. I lose hope so easily...I get discouraged so easily....I'm not really that strong to face the challenges that may come along my way....I'm just so weak...And now, I have lots of regrets because I know in myself that I could have done better...
Nevertheless, I'm really determined now...I learned a lot from those mistakes that I have done in the past and in present time...I'll promise to myself that this time around, I would really give my best shot..I'm not getting any younger to begin with..And most importantly, I do have a daughter that I really wanted to give a brighter future..Hence, she should be enough reason for me to remain focus and to give my 100% in everything that I do just to ensure that I could give her a brighter future that I badly want to give her...
I should be more stronger now, be more responsible, be more hard working and I should do my job well since it's not just my future that is really at stake here, but most especially the future of my angel....
Nevertheless, I'm really determined now...I learned a lot from those mistakes that I have done in the past and in present time...I'll promise to myself that this time around, I would really give my best shot..I'm not getting any younger to begin with..And most importantly, I do have a daughter that I really wanted to give a brighter future..Hence, she should be enough reason for me to remain focus and to give my 100% in everything that I do just to ensure that I could give her a brighter future that I badly want to give her...
I should be more stronger now, be more responsible, be more hard working and I should do my job well since it's not just my future that is really at stake here, but most especially the future of my angel....
Saturday, January 28, 2012
I'm really hoping for the best...
It's almost a month since I have written an entry in here, and I must say I have missed this blog. So this will be my very first entry this 2012. LMAO...
Anyway, There were certain things that had happened in 2011 that really saddened me. Basically, 2011 wasn't really a great year for me. There were a lot of things that weren't easy to handle I must say. At times, I couldn't help but to feel that I am not good or smart enough because of what happened. The past year was really a roller-coaster ride for me. Nevertheless, I have no choice but to still move forward with my life. Even though it's really tough to do it, I believe in myself that I can still be able to do it though...I have to be strong for my family and most especially to my daughter..she's definitely my life, my everything...that's why no matter how cruel this world may be, I draw strength from her. She motivates me to work my butt off since as much as possible I want to give her all the material things that this world has to offer. I want to make sure that she has a brighter future ahead of her...So, whenever I feel like giving-up, I just think about her, and I know I'll be fine already..My angel really inspires me to be the better person that I can be...
I'm really hoping that 2012 would be a great year for me and for my family. I would love to claim that this is my year already..I really hope so...I just hope that everything will fall into place. That I'll eventually reap the fruits of my labor this time around..I hope that God will finally hear my prayers and give this particular thing that I've been asking from Him for years now...for the reason that I'm not asking this thing not just for myself but I honestly believe that my family will definitely benefit from it more than me..
Anyway, There were certain things that had happened in 2011 that really saddened me. Basically, 2011 wasn't really a great year for me. There were a lot of things that weren't easy to handle I must say. At times, I couldn't help but to feel that I am not good or smart enough because of what happened. The past year was really a roller-coaster ride for me. Nevertheless, I have no choice but to still move forward with my life. Even though it's really tough to do it, I believe in myself that I can still be able to do it though...I have to be strong for my family and most especially to my daughter..she's definitely my life, my everything...that's why no matter how cruel this world may be, I draw strength from her. She motivates me to work my butt off since as much as possible I want to give her all the material things that this world has to offer. I want to make sure that she has a brighter future ahead of her...So, whenever I feel like giving-up, I just think about her, and I know I'll be fine already..My angel really inspires me to be the better person that I can be...
I'm really hoping that 2012 would be a great year for me and for my family. I would love to claim that this is my year already..I really hope so...I just hope that everything will fall into place. That I'll eventually reap the fruits of my labor this time around..I hope that God will finally hear my prayers and give this particular thing that I've been asking from Him for years now...for the reason that I'm not asking this thing not just for myself but I honestly believe that my family will definitely benefit from it more than me..
Monday, December 19, 2011
A difficult time for me...
Last Friday at exactly 5:30pm, our trainor already announced who will make it to the TQ phase, since it's already the end of our technical training.
Actually, I already anticipated the result and true enough, my intuition is really right.
The result really brought me to tears since I’m really hurt about the result. Even though I had the feeling already that the worst thing would happen but still I can’t really help myself but to be sad about it, since I have invested so much time on this particular training.
Actually, I already anticipated the result and true enough, my intuition is really right.
The result really brought me to tears since I’m really hurt about the result. Even though I had the feeling already that the worst thing would happen but still I can’t really help myself but to be sad about it, since I have invested so much time on this particular training.
Yes, I have to admit that I didn’t give my best and I’m not really focused on the training. What so sad about it is that I feel like I’m the dumbest person in the class since I’m just the only one who didn’t make it.
I must say that every time I see their posts that they finally have a job, I can’t really help but cry and be disappointed with myself since I want to be in their situation as well. I want to work there and to finally have my own money, my hard earned money.
I definitely have regrets right now since I know that I can really do it, I could have done better.
If I could only turn back time, I would absolutely give my best shot just to get in.
I promise to myself that I’ll go back there and I’ll make sure that I’ll make it the second time around.
This is a difficult situation for me, but I need to move forward and move on with my life. I have to remain positive despite what happened.
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