A difficult time for me...

 Last Friday at exactly 5:30pm, our trainor already announced who will make it to the TQ phase, since it's already the end of our technical training.

Actually, I already anticipated the result and true enough, my intuition is really right.

The result really brought me to tears since I’m really hurt about the result. Even though I had the feeling already that the worst thing would happen but still I can’t really help myself but to be sad about it, since I have invested so much time on this particular training.

Yes, I have to admit that I didn’t give my best and I’m not really focused on the training. What so sad about it is that I feel like I’m the dumbest person in the class since I’m just the only one who didn’t make it.

I must say that every time I see their posts that they finally have a job, I can’t really help but cry and be disappointed with myself since I want to be in their situation as well. I want to work there and to finally have my own money, my hard earned money.

I definitely have regrets right now since I know that I can really do it, I could have done better.

If I could only turn back time, I would absolutely give my best shot just to get in.

I promise to myself that I’ll go back there and I’ll make sure that I’ll make it the second time around. 

This is a difficult situation for me, but I need to move forward and move on with my life. I have to remain positive despite what happened.