I truly regret it

I had a big fight today with someone that is very close to my heart. It was definitely unexpected and it just started from a petty thing.

A while ago, there were some exchanging of hurtful words, that we didn't mean to say to each other. I didn't mean what I've said to this person, but because I was so hurt, I ended up uttering those words, that were not supposed to be said to him. And because of that, I wanna say sorry from the bottom of my heart. I should have shown him some respect, because after all, he was the one responsible why we are all here.

I have to admit that it was all my fault. I shouldn't have argued with him in the first place. I never imagined that I would have the courage to say those things right in front of him. I know that I had hurt him as well. Even though that I have done those things, it doesn't really mean that I'm a bad person, it just that, I have some issues as well with myself and I went through a lot of things that triggered me to say such words.

I had heard some hurtful words from him as well, but I did regret why I answered back to him.

I'm also very hurt when I heard some things coming from him about me that are definitely not true. I'm sick and tired of hearing that I'm a bad daughter or a bad person, when in fact, my family is my inspiration, and the very first reason why I believe I should work hard. I even think that I should not think about myself first, since I need to ensure that everything is okay already, before I should think and prioritize myself.

Everything has been said and done already, but the most important thing here is that, I have the courage to say sorry to someone that I think I have hurt so much, and absolutely doesn't deserve the disrespect, but rather, the love and respect coming from us.