A difficult time for me...

 Last Friday at exactly 5:30pm, our trainor already announced who will make it to the TQ phase, since it's already the end of our technical training.

Actually, I already anticipated the result and true enough, my intuition is really right.

The result really brought me to tears since I’m really hurt about the result. Even though I had the feeling already that the worst thing would happen but still I can’t really help myself but to be sad about it, since I have invested so much time on this particular training.

Yes, I have to admit that I didn’t give my best and I’m not really focused on the training. What so sad about it is that I feel like I’m the dumbest person in the class since I’m just the only one who didn’t make it.

I must say that every time I see their posts that they finally have a job, I can’t really help but cry and be disappointed with myself since I want to be in their situation as well. I want to work there and to finally have my own money, my hard earned money.

I definitely have regrets right now since I know that I can really do it, I could have done better.

If I could only turn back time, I would absolutely give my best shot just to get in.

I promise to myself that I’ll go back there and I’ll make sure that I’ll make it the second time around. 

This is a difficult situation for me, but I need to move forward and move on with my life. I have to remain positive despite what happened.

The technical training is so boring...

I’m in training room right now. I’m working my butt off for the past weeks just to get in. Honestly, I really don’t know what this trainor is saying. I can’t understand all the things that he’s uttering at this very moment. Oh God, please help me. I don’t really understand all the techie stuff. It’s really hard I must say. The training will finish this week and I already feel the negative thing will happen. If I can only turn back time, I want to start what has been discussed since day 1 ( LMAO ).

I also don’t know if I can be able to make it. I heard from the trainor that out of 11 trainees, only 9 will pass, and the other 2 trainees will definitely fail. I have the feeling that I’m one of the 2 trainees that won’t make it to TQ phase. I already anticipated that thing.

I know that success will not happen overnight, but I’ll absolutely feel bad if ever I’ll fail, for the reason that I’ve invested so much time and energy in this particular training, and it would definitely be depressing if I’ll not get in.

Honestly, it’s nerve wracking and heart wrenching as well if the worst thing will happen. As what I’ve mentioned, I’m working my butt off just to land a job in a BPO industry.

I really don’t know where to say all these stuff, that’s why I just decided to blog this one here. I’ll definitely keep you posted whatever the outcome will be, whether the positive or the negative one. 

So, Bye for now….