I am so sad today..

I am so sad today. It is just that I don't know if  I have to keep going with I am doing now or I just have to pursue the career I supposed to do. But I think all I do were a failure. Back in the days were I have accomplished what I thought to be one of my greatest achievements in life, when I thought I was very fortunate then since it was one of the dreams of some people. But as years go by, I have realized that I was not lucky enough. I know it is not a good trait but sometime I envy those people who are successful in the field same as mine.

I want to be successful but every time I did something, it did not turn out to be what I wanted to happen. I sometimes feel  I am not good enough. I did every thing that I can just to be successful in every thing that I do. I hope God will hear my cry. I hope God sees what is really in my heart. I hope God will ease the pain in my heart. This is not an easy journey for me. I am wishing that someday I will finally harvest the fruits of my labor.