Dear Lord God....

Dear Lord God,

You are really aware that these past days I’m not really feeling well. That’s why I even went to the doctor last Wednesday, and gladly, my cbc is normal. But you really know that the thing that scares me most is my neck lymph nodes, which the doctor checked them and said that the reason why I have them is mainly because of viral infection, and there’s no reason for me to get worried.

However, every time I read articles on the web regarding neck lymph nodes, I just can’t help myself but to be frightened about it. And yesterday, I’m really scared since I’ve watched something on boob tube that really makes me frightened.

Lord Jesus Christ, through the years, you were the only one who has seen some of my sufferings in life that even my closest friends and even my family weren’t aware of. But during those times, I haven’t felt that I am alone since you were always there who gave me love and wisdom on how would I’d be able to resolve all of them.

Lord Jesus Christ, I’m going through something tough right now, but I really don’t know how to solve it since it is regarding my health and you are the only one who has the power to heal me. You know Lord God that these past weeks, I’m not really feeling well. I’m really scared about these lymph nodes that I have right now, and not to mention, I have headaches too.  

Lord Jesus Christ, Please let me feel your love and please hug me Lord God, for me to feel that I don’t have to worry anymore since you’ll not leave me. I’m still too young and I want to live for my family and most especially for my baby, which I do love more than anything in this world. I want to take care of her, love her, and be the best mother that I could be for her. I want to grow old, and be with my daughter. Please Lord, let me experience those wonderful things, and that’s all I’m asking from you Lord God. Please heal me. Please take those lymph nodes or lumps away from my body. I hope Lord Jesus that I won't suffer anymore headaches since it makes me worry a lot.

Please Lord Jesus, make me feel that there’s nothing to worry about by giving me a sign that every thing is okay and that I'm perfectly healthy....Please dear God...

The not so wonderful life of mine

It's exactly 3:06 AM right now, but still, I don't wanna go to bed yet. There are still a lot of things going on with my mind right now that keeps me awake even at 3 o'clock in the morning. Yes, I'm very sad, very hurt and really don't know what to do with my life right now. In fact, I'm teary-eyed while writing this post. Why do I feel this thing? Simply because there were a lot of things happened the past years. I had no idea back then that my life would be such a mess and I would end up like this. I have went through a lot ever since I was 7 years old. Life for me back then wasn't that easy for me to handle. School, friends, family, everything was really hard to handle.

Even at such a tender age, I already have an idea if what's the reality of life, like there are a lot of people out there that would take advantage of you and your weaknesses. At an early age, I already have faced trials that even my parents were unaware of. I'm not the kind of kid back then, that would make "sumbong" to my parents or to my uncles once there were something going on in school, since I'm the type of kid that would rather keep everything to myself, than telling it to my family of what were actually happening with me, or what I'm going through at that very moment. I'm very secretive and as much possible, I would not want my family to know what were my problems, since I want to solve them on my own and I don't have the enough courage to confide all my problems to the people closest to my heart.

Up to this very day, I'm still like that. I'm still the same person several years back, nothing has changed. The same person that would rather cry alone, than sharing my problems with people or with my family. And until this very day, my family has no idea what I went through, and the pain I have felt.

Nevertheless, I have to admit that I'm getting tired already in facing those battles all by myself. I need someone or a friend that would cry along with me, and would totally understand me. But sad to say, I don't know if there's someone out there that I could turn to. If there's a person that would be very much willing to listen to all my grievances, and would utter some encouraging words that I badly need at this very moment.

My very first payment from Blogtoprofit

I'm just so glad that I received my very first payment from Blogtoprofit a few days ago. It is from the tasks I finished a couple of weeks ago. So, here's the screen shot:

What's good about them is that, they pay weekly so you don't need to wait that long to be paid. I'm very much hoping to receive more tasks from them in the coming days. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

I truly regret it

I had a big fight today with someone that is very close to my heart. It was definitely unexpected and it just started from a petty thing.

A while ago, there were some exchanging of hurtful words, that we didn't mean to say to each other. I didn't mean what I've said to this person, but because I was so hurt, I ended up uttering those words, that were not supposed to be said to him. And because of that, I wanna say sorry from the bottom of my heart. I should have shown him some respect, because after all, he was the one responsible why we are all here.

I have to admit that it was all my fault. I shouldn't have argued with him in the first place. I never imagined that I would have the courage to say those things right in front of him. I know that I had hurt him as well. Even though that I have done those things, it doesn't really mean that I'm a bad person, it just that, I have some issues as well with myself and I went through a lot of things that triggered me to say such words.

I had heard some hurtful words from him as well, but I did regret why I answered back to him.

I'm also very hurt when I heard some things coming from him about me that are definitely not true. I'm sick and tired of hearing that I'm a bad daughter or a bad person, when in fact, my family is my inspiration, and the very first reason why I believe I should work hard. I even think that I should not think about myself first, since I need to ensure that everything is okay already, before I should think and prioritize myself.

Everything has been said and done already, but the most important thing here is that, I have the courage to say sorry to someone that I think I have hurt so much, and absolutely doesn't deserve the disrespect, but rather, the love and respect coming from us.

Straight Talk- August

This is a Sponsored post written by me on behalf of Straight Talk for SocialSpark. All opinions are 100% mine.

I just realized how fast time flies since it's August now, and after a couple of months, it's already my birthday. Yes, it's already my special day 2 months from now. I don't know if I have to be excited about it or anything.

It's not that I don't want to celebrate my birthday, or something, but every time my birthday is approaching, I can't help myself but to be sad about it..*lol*...You want to know why I feel that way? simply because I'm getting a year older again, and it really upsets me...*lol*...In fact, my mom would always tell me that I'm not her little girl anymore, and I'm not getting any younger. Oh, I really miss my mom since she's been working in a foreign land for such a long time already. I just wanna hear all her advices everything about life, and I believe that mom knows best . Whenever I feel this way, all I wanna do is to call her every single day, and as we all know, it would be very expensive right? That's why I'm really planning to switch to straight Talk, and by doing this, I could already imagine the amount of money I could save just by switching to Straight Talk.

Another good thing about Straight Talk is that, their International Long Distance Service is a flexible prepaid calling service that enables you to make international calls from your home, cell or office phone at low rates. So, I can already call a friend that is also working outside the country whenever I want to.

Additionally, Straight Talk also has a monthly plan called the "All You Need Plan" that is even perfect for heavy phone users, since it has 1,000 minutes, 1,000 texts and 30 MB of web data.

Why don't you try Straight Talk as well since it has everything you need, and not to mention, there are no contracts, no surprise bills and no credit checks as well. Straight Talk also has a great nationwide coverage and excellent reception/connectivity. And lastly, they only use trusted phone manufacturers such as  LG, Motorola, Kyocera, Nokia and Samsung.

For you to learn more about Straight Talk, you better check the video below:

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Yey! My post was shared....

I am just so happy that my post about Charice from my other blog, The Girls' Interests.com was shared in one of the forums about Charice. I was happy about it since for the very first time there's someone out there who did appreciate my entry, and shared it. So, here are the screen shots:

 

And that very moment I was so surprised that the traffic of my blog had suddenly increased. And then I found out that it's not just because it was shared in a forum, but because it was retweeted by Charice fans. So here's the screen shot of it:

I just hope that this will not be the last time, but just only the beginning of the great things that the future has in store for my blogs. And I will surely keep you posted.

So, whoever those people are, I just want to say, Thank You guys! It means a lot to me!

Yey! I received my very first "opp" from Social Spark!

I'm happy yesterday since when I opened my inbox, I'm so surprised to receive an e-mail from social spark that I have an "opp" from them. Right after reading that, I immediately went to my SS account, and wrote the post right away.

And right now, I already received a notification into my inbox saying that the post I created was already approved by the advertiser. I just can't wait to receive my very first payment from them.

Actually, I've been a member of Social Spark for months now, and this is the very first time for me to receive an "opp" from them.

I'm hoping to receive more "opps" from them in the coming days.